alif

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2006-11-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

Aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya

Yang kini hadir diantara kita

Namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu

Yang slama ini temani hidupku

Maafkan aku menduakan cintamu

Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya

Dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu

Maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu

Seandainya bila ku bisa memilih

Kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya

Mungkin semua tak kan seperti ini

Dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku

Membawa aku dalam kehancuran

blurry

2006-07-06T21:56:00.000+08:00

watched Superman returns wif her...damn...rated 4/5 stars by many readers, magazines, newspaper...they are all liars! its a waste of money i tell u! dunnoe why we end up watching it anyway...haiz, she's the man is so much better....

these days, everyone in camp is getting sick....that includes me too...haiz...had mc yesterdae, and today they gave us free half day! wth....

dun ask me wat happened today...i dunnoe how to go about it too...was shocked + pissed + happy + excited + sad + angry + dissapointed + nervous + unlucky + mad = Bllury.....

haha reminds me of sumting....these words/phrases/sentences is alwaes lingering in my mind....

everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
i cannot live at all
MY WHOLE WORLD SURROUNDS YOU
i stumble then i crawl

you could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
i wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's ocean in between us
but that's not very far....

everyone is changing
theres' noone left that's real
to make up your ending
and let me know just how you feel
cos i am lost without you
i cannot live at all
MY WHOLE WORLD SURROUNDS YOU
i stumble then i crawl.....

jealous

2006-07-03T10:59:00.000+08:00

finally end of SAF DAY...gosh...totally shagged ar....actually lazy to update.... ;p

k lets make it short and sweet lah

my day, week hasnt been good...sucky....today oso very very sucky....

currently listening to good day by click five....got that song from nisa...thanx ar...

i dunnoe ar....life is so unpredictable...haiz... i wonder sumtime if i can go thru this...

why must it be me...dunnoe lah...maybe its just me...

allah pls berikan ku kekuatan untuk ku berjuang hingga ke akhir hayat.....

hot

2006-06-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

isnt shes hot....sigh...hope she get in to the next round sia...gosh...
she got that attitude just rite for spore idol....dun u tink so?

wen to town wif them...ok ar...met lots of ppl tho...seems like todae lots of ppl taking time off to walk around town i gez....ahmad zaharan and his gal (not once, not twice but three times i saw him todae!), a poly fren of mine who's now werking in sasa...oso met my pri sch mate and oso polymate at far east....not forgetting my juniors along the way...hell lots of ppl...hell lots of sale....gosh when is pay day!!!!!!!!

rough dae todae...rough week ahead....tough journey........

pity

2006-05-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

Air mata yang berderai
Siapa yang menghapuskan
Hati kering dan gersang
Siapa yang meneduhkan
Sedangkan kau yang ku sayang
Telah pergi dari ku
Dengan cinta
Dan harapan
Hidupku...oh sayang
Tiada lagi ku dengar kidungmu
Tiada lagi derai tawamu
Hanya kesepian
Yang kian mencengkam
Jiwaku
Malam-malam dingin membeku
Hari-hari kian kelabu
Dalam doa kudus
Ku sebut nama mu
Cinta ku
Oh sayang

wat a meaningful song i can say...sigh...just feel like being abit emo todae....

all the best to the two buggers....not gona see u guys for 1 month....damn...and u haf to leave us....wth

i guess tis is life...ppl come and go....normally these ppl are those who made a great impact in my life...yet one dae they have to leave....shud u??? must u?? gosh.....

and tis wolverine cant stop msging me....haha ichy hands ar?? stupid sentinel...hehe

thoughts.....

2006-05-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

sigh....big relieve....finally two days of atp combat shoot just end. cant help it but shout hooray...yeah!!!
not bad for me huh....miss only 8 targets...wahahaha cockeye i gez!! all the best to all the guys there who will be doing the reshooting again....dont worry...concentrate yah

spend almost 18hrs at range yest and most of the time we spent waiting for our turn....cant help so decided do wander off for a while.

i find it this very interesting....trust and honesty.....do u need it both in a relationship? or simply just trust is enuff?

well let me elaborate abit....you trust a person....but ur not honest....so tell me wats the point? isnt love is all about opening up to each other? true? agree? then isit weird if u say u love him/her very much and u gif her/him your whole trust....but your not even honest with each other! i only hafe two words for that person....fark off!

haha....haf a person you love...gif her your trust.....gif her your freedom but your not honest with her....you made lots of girl friends behind her back....sweet talks with them behind her back....flirt behind her back....BUT you gif her your trust but not honesty....think about it....then wat is relationship?

its there so that you have a name? BF? isit? ego! big ego!

haiz....immatured? but got the age...matured? *spit out* crapz!!!!

haha till then....

tempered

2006-05-24T17:17:00.000+08:00

so much for u wantimg me to understand you wen u urself cant even tolerate one small thing. a thing that was long ago.....

arghhhh im not mad at u....im mad at myself..my comp!!! i type bloody long for my next entry but suddenly my comp shut down...wtf!

dun wanna type anymore....fark it.....

tiring day

2006-05-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

wat a slack day for me today. sigh....tired because we almost slept the whole day today. no training. yippie.

actually in the mornig there was training but me and zal excuse because of guard rest. waha den ltr in the afternoon got some test....there goes one whole day here. haha

nothing much really happen. same old shity stuff. haiz

hei hei, she went for some "urut" wah...fresh? hope so.....

i tink i need some of tat too....sigh....acupunture maybe??? hehe

few more weeks to hooray hooray....looking forward to that.... ;-)

happy mother's day

2006-05-14T20:23:00.000+08:00

mother's day today. to all mummys out there here's a lil sumting from me....

setiap detik nafasnya, setiap langkah diambilnya, adalha satu pengorbanan
yang tidak kenal erti lelah, tidak kira siang atau mlm, berusaha dalam jerih perih
demi membaiki taraf kehidupan, demi membela nasib keluarga, agar tidak dihina dek kedaifan
dipandang sepi masyarakat.
untuk anak-anak, dia rela berhempas-pulas, menahan jatuhnya air mata,
memberi segalanya yang diingini
keyakinannya yang amat kuat dala mmembesarkan kami, diiringi doa yang tabah,
moga nasib ini berubah, dari suram menjadi ceria.
alangkah indahnya apabila pengorbana dihargai, oleh anak-anak yang mengenang budi.
di hari ibu, marilah, marilah kita menyingkap kembali jasa-jasa mereka yang tidak terhingga....

awww....

din do much today....a last minute outing to swensen, banana split, fish and chips....makes me heavy...arghhh *yawnz*

hope ur outing to lagun sari was ok...take it as a break from ur hectic schedule and upcoming stress....u need it. tho i tink she can be more understanding hur...well....

monday another boring day....guard duty till tues, sigh, for the country, for my country!

GOH GOH GOH....sedia rusuk senjata hormat senjata turun senjata senang diri, sux man....but hei, an experience i will neva forget atleast for this 1 yr im serving ns....PROVOSt!

wild wild wet nxt month? k?